Weekly Recap – April 26th, 2013

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I fought it out with The Devil of Doubt this week. He wanted me to give up and do something easy. He wanted me to feel exposed and worthless, to know that I was deluding myself into thinking I could be a writer.

But you know what? F*** him.

Halfway through the week, something inside of me pushed back. While I could have felt sorry for myself for days on end, I decided doing so would be giving This Enemy of Mine exactly what he wanted. The only power he had over me was that which I handed him.

And so I decided to fool the Old Bastard. I pretended that he was right.

I told him that I was not going to look at my novel-in-progress anymore. I was going to just noodle around and type some things and if they happened to be close to my original story idea, why, that was merely coincidence. I was hitting keys on the keyboard, nothing more. That some of the output made sense and maybe helped reshape my story premise into something I could work with, well, pure serendipity!

And of course I wasn’t going to do any more research.  No, sir, not me. That would mean I was planning on wasting more of my precious minutes on this earth. That book I was reading and highlighting and taking notes on? I was just going to continue reading that for fun. If a few things get marked up in neon yellow, it’s only because I thought they were interesting facts to discuss with my friends.

So began my return to the good fight. This ‘stepping back’ made me realize that the reason I was having so much trouble outlining my novel was because my premise lacked focus. I couldn’t draw up a roadmap because my original goal had me going in two directions at the same time. Maybe someone with more experience could handle such an idea with ease. But I know my limitations. Architects don’t lead billion dollar projects when they’re interns.

I hope you all have a great weekend and, as always, I appreciate you taking the time to visit and listen to the crazy man hoot and holler from his porch.

-Phillip

0 thoughts on “Weekly Recap – April 26th, 2013

  1. Wow, that’s smart. When that jerk shows up at my house I just try to kick him in the junk until he stops pestering me and goes off to find someone less irritating to bother. Sorry if I accidentally sent him your way…

    1. Haha! Kicking in the junk is good, but I think he got smart with me and began wearing a titanium cup.

      1. Ooh, I’ll have to watch for that, thanks.

  2. I don’t think he ever goes away no matter at what step you’re in of your career.

    At one point, with two books down, but sales not going that well, I had the worst fight with him ever. And he laughed and scoffed and told me how much of my life I’d wasted when I could have been living or watching tv or sleeping more. And honestly, I believed for a while. Maybe even as much as two or three weeks.

    My wife hated me during that time because I was so down. I had crossed the finish line, which obviously took decades of piddling, trying, and failing, and there I lay exhausted, and no one had even noticed I’d crossed the line. Except for family.

    Anyway, the devil of doubt nearly won that time. (I refuse to capitalize his name.) So, I only say all this because even once you get a couple on the shelves, that bastard isn’t going to go away. Believe me though, if I can ever get my arms around him, I plan to cut his balls off and stuff ’em down his throat.

    Maybe then he’ll prove less feisty, and stop coming by so often…

    1. I think you’re right, Stan. He’s like ants that keep invading your house. There’s no killing them for good, just the constant vigilance to ensure the damage is minimal.

      I also love that you refuse to capitalize his name. Good advice! It sounds like you have the perfect plan of dealing with him as well. Maybe we can work together and trap the sonofabitch!

  3. Keep fighting the good fight Phil. We’re right here with you. And keep writing too. That’s also important. 🙂

    1. Thank you Joshua! Appreciate the support, and you’re right…can’t stop writing. 🙂

  4. […] I took a similar approach when I ran into a wall with my current novel just a few weeks ago. I can tell you, it works. Many times, we wind ourselves up so tight, our creative blood seizes up and refuses to flow. That’s not good and when our body finally relaxes naturally, we look back at all of the wasted time and feel bad about ourselves all over again. […]

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