I’ve Lived a Good Life

Nearly seven years ago, my aunt spoke those words from a hospital bed, surrounded by her husband, my wife, and me. What started as breast cancer had spread nearly everywhere in her body and a woman I loved more than words can paint had accepted reality while this nephew still foolishly held out for a miracle. She was looking forward …

Prepare Yourself

Every evening, before I go to bed, I perform the following ritual: Pull out the gym clothes I’ll be wearing the next morning. Pull out the work clothes I’ll be changing into after my post-workout shower. Pack my gym bag with a towel and work shoes. Put my gym shoes besides the gym bag. Prep my coffee maker so I …

Pity for the Walking Dead: Keep Fighting

“These people, thousands of them, were called the Muselmänner, the ‘moslems’ or ‘walking dead,’ for whom time ran out before they were able to shake the sense of nightmare and wake to their predicament. They starved, they fell sick, they stumbled into situations which got them killed. For them the collapse was too much, too many psychic and physical blows too …

Believe It or Not, You Have a Choice

Life gives us many choices. Sometimes they may not appear to be there, but they are. Sometimes they are pretty tough, but that doesn’t eliminate their existence. These days, we have more opportunity than ever to achieve our goals and twice that amount of opportunity to distract ourselves. “The cost is too high,” you say. The cost of failure. Of embarrassment. …

Struggling to Give Good Things Power

“Suffering is sometimes cleansing,” said the man. His clothes were casual, but expensive. “It can purify.”   “It can also fuck you up,” said Shadow.   – Neil Gaiman, American Gods I love it when the brain takes two completely different sources of input and creates something new. I just wrapped up my initial round of studying Neil Gaiman’s American …