2019 Goals Recap – Week #11
Edit: After a couple of very insightful comments (thanks John and Jill!), I realized this post came off way more angst-filled than intended. Probably a hazard of the very thing I talk about in here–trying to do too much with too little time and hitting “Publish” before giving it a night to rest so I can re-read.
Long story short, all’s well in my world. I’ve just had a bad couple of weeks with the writing run and I realized that I’ve needed to pull back a little. That realization is a good thing and something I haven’t been able to do in the past without unneeded anxiety.
So, I’ll wrap up my current commitments (in which I now know is too much for me) and then get back to emphasizing the writing!
I have a couple of problems right now…
One, I’ve become way too critical with my writing. This happens sometimes when I spend a lot of time studying. It’s difficult for me to flip the switch from critical-brain activities to creative-brain activities. It’s something I need to work on. Something I need to practice. I have two half-written short stories that started with a bang and just stopped cold. I made the mistake of trying to consciously apply the things I’ve learned from the workshop and what I’ve been actively studying and that’s made the writing slow and agonizing.
It was the first time in a long time that I actually finished a day with less wordcount than I started with–I kept going over what I’d written and deleting stuff I thought was crap on a sentence-level.
Bad idea. As I re-read what I’d written, I felt like the life just got sucked right out of the story.
Two, I am trying to do too much.
I’ve been trying to get back into the exercise routine that I skipped out on both while attending the Anthology Workshop and upon my return when my family was sick.
Health and family are take importance for me above writing, so I’ve been putting my focus on that.
Plus, I have a lot of assigned reading to catch up on for another craft workshop (writing mystery stories) that will be taking place in April. This one’s a ‘study-along’ format which takes place during the actual on-site workshop, but without needing to travel. Still, there is some pre-reading that’s been assigned. I just finished the first 800-page anthology that needed to be read and have, oh, about seven or eight more books to finish by mid-April.
So, yeah, it’s a constant battle to figure out just when I’m taking on too much. When that happens, I need to make hard choices. For better or for worse, I’ve decided to prioritize the reading over the writing at the moment. I feel that if I didn’t, the workshop wouldn’t be nearly as useful and I really need to start thinking long-term.
And, to be honest, I’m finding some amazing stories and future writing to study. The Best American Mystery Stories of the Century really lives up to its name. I never realized how much I liked mysteries until I read through this amazing volume. A few new authors have now hit my bookstore shopping list.
Okay, on to the food (for those that care). I had wanted to do corned beef for St. Patty’s day, but I just didn’t get in enough lead time to do the corning. So, I “settled” for Dark Chocolate Guinness Cake with Bailey’s Cream Cheese Frosting.
Yeah. It came out as good as it sounds.
Unfortunately, WordPress is not playing nice with my photos and I can’t seem to upload any besides that. So you’ll just have to take my word for it (or admire the background of the featured image).
I hope you all had a wonderful past week and are looking forward to success in the coming week!